I debated about making this post, but then again I wanted to be honest with myself, since this is a blog about life and my amazing journey. Since last week I have been lacking in my creativity zone, in other words, not doing anything to express my creative side and when this happens this energy can go in many other directions and not always the right direction. So this morning when I was choosing to overeat or emotionally overeat I wrote this letter to myself. Now maybe some of you can relate and others may not, which is fine. I just needed to put this out there for others and myself, just so that you know you are not alone!
"I get so discussed with myself for overeating, it brings me to tears to be treating my body like this and betraying my soul this way and I can't seem to stop it! I read books about the topic and sometimes I think I have the answers, but then it happens again. I wish I was a writer (published). It is so pathetic how I can't seem to even stop it, but at times I can. (I know this doesn't make sense) I feel like I should know better......which I should. I wonder will anything be easy or I should/could say come easy in my life (as a creative side of me) as I really want to write. Why should I have to take a class....you don't....read books and incorporate the information in. I'm what they call a binge eater and an emotional eater. It seems easier to just give in than to find the courage to beat it. OMG, Pam..do you know what you just wrote....get it together NOW!"
So I go to our book case and pull out this book:
and this one:
Both are excellent! I will pull myself up and start reading and healing again! Forgetting to feel sorry for me...lol! and find my courage to move onward and upward. Thank you for reading and I hope this helps other and me too! xoxo to all!